reflecting on the things that happened this past few mths, i admit that i do have my wrong. but not completely.
i cldn't be bothered and i'm jus too tire to explain any further here. lets just wait and see.







p.s

i think i finally understand the reason.
looking at others, both of them seem not only have common interest but also loads and loads of things to say.
thats the difference i guess.
it shldn't have start.

Sometimes I wish I was a little girl again-because bruised knees heal faster than broken hearts.





ahahaha...what a joke!!!!

i thought the least u could do is to keep ur mouth SHUT.





now i truely wish i've nv met u...
i've been thinking alot recently...those memories kept flowing to me, those flashes frm how we know each other, how our r/s became closer till how we gradually drifted apart n finally split.
i came to a conclusion: i am jus NOTHING to u. simply NOTHING.
when u wrote those comments, have u even spare a thought for my feeling. or do u treat me as an idiot, ignorant of everything that is happening ard me.
i kept my silence all this while doesn't mean i am at fault, shldn't u at least listen to both sides, before making a stand.
switching those pics as and when u like.
sticking to me and dumping me aside as and when u like.
what do u exactly treat me as????
when u sent ur regards, ur concern to all those ard u, u r just so stingy in showering me w jus a little of what u have shown to others.
this shld seriously stop.
or it shldn't have started right frm the beginning.
i guess i am the only one feeling the pain
it doesn't matter to u.
if not u wldn't bear to do so.


if every single one meant to turn out this way. i can only say its totally beyond my controlled.
i've tried, struggled, put in every bit of my effort.
its totally useless. i give up.





I have never been strong enough to stay. People say that walking away is the hardest thing to do, but it isn’t. staying, even when you know it will break your heart, is the hardest thing. Staying right where you are, waiting for your entire world to be ripped into pieces is much harder than walking away and starting a new one.

Do you ever get that feeling where you don’t want to talk to anybody? You don’t want to smile and you don’t want to fake being happy but at the same time you don’t know exactly what’s wrong either, there isn’t a way to explain it to someone who doesn’t already understand. If you could want anything in the world it would be to be alone. People have stopped being comforting and being alone never was. At least when you’re alone no one constantly asks you what’s wrong and there isn’t anyone who won’t take “I don’t know” for an answer. you feel the way you do just because. you hope the feeling will pass soon and that you will be able to be yourself again, but until then all you can do is wait.

My existence is a daily reminder of why my insecurities exist.

The one that is meant for us is going to be the hardest to get, the hardest to keep, and the hardest to accept because through all that the love will grow stronger. Love wasn’t made to be easy, otherwise we wouldn’t end up with the right person. We would end up with the first one who comes along. By struggling we single out the wrong ones and realize who really is the one.
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You can feel when someone you hold close to your heart is slipping away, little by little. It’s when the mere thought of losing a friend can bring you to tears almost instantly. The pain you are beginning to feel can crush your entire heart. Yet everything that you try to do to solve the problems only push them further and further away from you. When the only chance of getting back to the way things were in the beginning is to hope this person realized what they may be losing.



We had said goodbye so many times before, but somehow our paths always managed to cross and we ended up in each other’s arms. But now when we said this goodbye. I have this feeling that I will never see you again. And that really hurts because I know that we are meant to lead our own separate lives. And I honestly don’t wanna cross your path in the future ‘cause I don’t want all these feelings to come back and have to try and get over you all over again.


he doesn't even know it, but each thing he says is a different knife. As the conversation heats, the wounds grow, and the knives dig deeper and deeper. Sometimes you think you've gotten over a person, but when you see him smile you suddenly realize you're just pretending you're over him to ease the pain of knowing that he will never be yours.


" I can't talk to you anymore, it's just that when I talk to you I realize how much I love you and when I realize how much I love you, I realize I can't have you and that makes me love you even more." " Nothing hurts more than realizing he meant everything to you, but you meant nothing to him." " I wonder, when you look into my eyes and watch my heart shatter, does it break your heart too, even crack it a little bit?" " When love is lost, do not bow your head in sadness; instead keep your head up high and gaze into heaven for that is where your broken heart has been sent to heal." " They say memories last forever. I sit here, thinking about you, and all the times I had you by my side. I remember the smiles that crept on my face and the happy tears that ran down my cheeks. I see your warm, gentle eyes looking at me, and I can feel your presence when I close my eyes, but when I reach for you, I feel you slipping away... It's like my memory is fading." " Giving up doesn't always mean you are weak; sometimes it means that you are strong enough to let go."





these days, my brain has been rationally telling me to give up, but irrationally, my heart is still clinging on, refusing to let go. but thats ok, as time goes by, things will definitely be better.



those troublesome stuff u brought to me. i shall nv forget.





so...i'm gonna let those quotes do the talking. again.

There’s someone in her past that she hasn’t gotten over yet. Each day is like the last and she misses what she can’t forget. It’s just an empty space where something used to be. Now she guards the gate, but she’s lost the key. No one enters, but no one leaves.

I smile, because when I cry it doesn’t help. When I cry, all it does is make people ask if I’m okay. i would love nothing more than to punch these people. I’m sitting here crying, but yes, I’m perfectly happy. I mean, come on, give me a break. Obviously I’m not okay.

And after a while you learn that you don’t need anyone else in order to survive. No one is ever going to always be there, no matter what they say or what they promise you. You just gotta suck it up, accept it and keep going on.

i take no credit for those quotes :)





so, i shldn't be blogging at this hour when i shld be wking on my assignment
but seeing the tons of bks piled on my desk, just leave me moodless and brain-DEAD.
i thought i need an avenue to let out my thoughts, my feelings. but i don't know how to start and what to say cos all thats been happening recently jus tumble my life upside down. Sooooo, i got all this quotes frm someone's blog. they sort of expresses what i am feeling recently. Again, below are what i've gotten frm someone's blog (i take NO credit for those quotes posted)

I’ve made mistakes in my life. I’ve let people take advantage of me, and I accepted way less than I deserve. But, I’ve learned from my bad choices and even though there are some things I can never get back and people who will never be sorry, I’ll know better next time and I won’t settle for anything less than I deserve.

Don’t tell me who I am; because unless I write all my thoughts down on a piece of paper and hand it to you, you don’t even know half my life.

I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so you appreciate them when they’re right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no-one but yourself and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.

Everyone’s heartbroken nowadays. But I mean, we all just have to move on. What’s the point of reminiscing when you know the person is no longer worth while; when they’re no longer who they used to be? When their heart is somewhere else? Do you think they still care for you, or are still thinking about you? Because frankly, they don’t.

So that’s the best advice that I could give: is just to keep moving forward and don’t give a shit what anybody thinks, you know. Just keep moving forward and do what you have to do for you.

I like to pretend that everything’s alright. Because when everybody else thinks you’re fine, sometimes you forget for a while, that you’re not.

Her biggest fear was that one day he would say ‘I want you back.’ She would break down in tears trying to think of a way to explain she is still too heartbroken from the last time and she’s still not ready to lose everything again.

You made me feel safe, like no matter what, you were gonna protect me.